Me:
My Bed:
Trying to study in the library………. not very productive at the moment.
but Howie Day - Collide is definitely mellowing me out :)
I know when I’m wrong and I have the conscience to realize when I have done someone wrong. Watching that person that I’ve done a wrong to, being lied to by the person who not only played a major role in the wrong-doing but also who said the most derogatory things about that person, my god. I just don’t understand how some people can be so fake. You’re as cruel as can be one night and the next morning, you’re their best friend? do you not have a conscience? How can you just sit there and lie to their face? It kills me because I’ve been trying so hard to right my wrong but I just can’t catch a chance at this because this person is always either busy or asleep. The worst part of everything is, I let them see me as a bad person; which I’m really not and I have so many people that could atest to this… I let myself get taken away by random fit of frustration and it ended up costing me more than just a friend. Because now this person probably sees me as a person they would never speak to again. I know my rambling right now is sort of vague and sounds pointless, but like the title says, I just need to vent. College sucks, I’m away from my best friend whose now always busy, I can’t make a connection with anyone and I feel distant from everything. It just sucks. Maybe this winter break wil do me good but for now this shit bites… and I’m praying that I get the chance to finally talk to this person and straighten things out. I hate keeping my frustration in -___- all I have left to confide in is my blog and it sucks. Wish me luck on this crazy adventure called college, its definitely off to a bitter-sweet start with more bitter than usual…..
